You may be wondering why I'm willing to share such a personal story. My husband asked me the same question, but after I read to him my first blog and he saw the smile it put on my face, I could tell he stopped wondering. Now after I said, "I'm going to share this with my friends and family", he got that nervous look on his face. Of course that was after he found out what the title was going to be on my first blog, Baby Makin Time, Sexy Time, IVF Time!. That anxiety quickly faded when I told him stories of how I've touched someone. Not just me, but even for a split moment I was able to bring a moment of calm to someone other than myself. I said, "Listen to some of the comments I'm getting, not just on the blog but in person, over personal messaging on Facebook". That's why, that is the reason I'm sharing my journey. I know that writing my feelings, my experiences is a way for me to release those pent up emotions, but if I could touch even one person that was enough reason for me. I've done that, with only a few days into writing, I've done exactly that. If my comments were to stop, the audience were to fade away, I'd still be happy. The love and support I have from those around me, from complete strangers is enough reason to keep this going. So... Thank you! Thank you all for walking with me, for sharing your own stories and fears. It means more than you know!
Finally that day came! The day my husband and I were to sit across from a fertility Dr. to discuss our concerns, my questions (or to at least confirm my fears). I had been waiting for that moment for years, and there we were. Mr. blue eyes was more vocal and excited than I was, how could that be? We listened as the doctor, Dr. Riggs explain some options; some background and then the results. That little white bag had concerned me. 3 tests, 3 results. Count... Mobility... Morphology. Morphology you ask? The size and shape of the little swimmers. Count was awesome, mobility was perfect, but the morphology not so great. I got scared and wondered how my husband was doing, but then the doc said it, 'I'm not concerned with that at all'. No? Seemed a bit strange, but we continued to listen. It only takes one. There it is, just like sitting in Sex Ed; it only takes one sperm and one egg. In my head I'm thinking... yea, exactly. All we need is one, and nothin's happened.
Seems we were the primary candidates for IVF, In vitro Fertilization. In vitro, meaning 'in glass'; in vitro fertilization, process by which an egg is fertilized by sperm outside of the body. Dr. Riggs educated us on the process and mentioned the first IVF patient also had tubal disease. This helps us bypass my tubes and our swimmer issues. I will never forget how nervous I became, because I thought for sure Mr. blue eyes would say no, but to my surprise he's sitting there nodding his head and agreeing with everything Riggs is saying. We left the consult, knowing we had a lot to talk about. But after a short amount of time we were shaking hands in agreement that we were doing it, we were going for it. With a lot of love and a little bit of science, we were going to make a baby!
"Infertility 101" presented by Ryan Riggs, M.D.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=28d-qfESsMQ
; ) LOVE YOU and Mr. Blue Eyes!
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