STOP
Stop putting your elbows at your waist, palms face up in the air with your eyebrows raised asking soooo??!? It didn't happen. No embryos, no baby!
STOP!
When you stop trying you'll get pregnant. News Flash!!! When you stop trying, you WILL NOT get pregnant.
STOP!!
Stop telling me to be patient! I have been . . .
STOP!!!
Stop saying, "Just relax, It'll happen." It would have by now.
STOP!!!!
Stop comparing your story to mine! It's not the same.
STOP!!!!!
Stop looking at me like you pity me! I don't want your pity.
STOP!!!!!!
Stop telling me to gain weight! I have, and nothing. Not even a healthy egg. Not one . . .
STOP!!!!!!!
Stop saying you're sorry! So am I . . .
STOP!!!!!!!!
Stop mentioning how you're sick of women saying they're infertile. I am, so go fuck yourself!
STOP!!!!!!!!!
Stop giving me advise on how to get pregnant, like keeping my legs in the air for 15 minutes. I've tried! No baby.
STOP!!!!!!!!!!
Stop asking if we've thought of adoption! I mean, come on. . .
STOP!!!!!!!!!!!
Stop parading around your perfect little family, and the next one on the way. And the one after that, and after that. . . Like it doesn't hurt already.
STOP!!!!!!!!!!!!
Stop saying, "Wait until you have children." Bitch, all I do is wait!
STOP!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Stop apologizing, stop trying to make it better, and stop saying anything! Right now I just need to feel my pain and it's OK. I will get through this . . .
Nikki - I LOVE this list of "stops." I've been quite seriously sick for the past 2.5yrs, and everything you said above rings true to me. I am so incredibly sick of the condescending nonsense people throw at me. So sick of them stating the obvious, telling me what it is I "absolutely must" do. The worst is this "New Age" idea that we manifest or create our reality, so if we could just be more positive we'd get well, or get pregnant, or whatever it is. It's so shaming and blaming and hurts. A lot.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry that you are on this long and painful path. I so hope that things will become ever-increasingly clear, so that you will know in what direction to turn, what action to take next. Please, as always, let me know if there's anything I can do, or if you'd like to speak with my dad further anytime - the offer is always there. Wishing you peace xox
Oh Anne, thank you so much for your comment. It means so much to know I am not alone with these feelings. I too wish you peace in everything you're experiencing. Thank you again for everything you have shared, and your kind words.
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