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Want some good news?  I did it, I surged! 

I had fear run through me that something was trying to tell me, it's just not going to happen.  Nerves were knotting up my stomach, and all I wanted to do was cry.  My IVF nurse encouraged me to continue testing and what do you know, I got that "static" smiley face.  What's funny about it, I almost forgot I took the test.  Some time had passed before I remembered to check that little white stick, and when I did I gasped.  I was shocked, happy and anxious all at once.  I sure am glad I kept testing, so I didn't have to wait another cycle to pass before starting over again.

I had almost forgotten I was Signing Myself up to Become a Human Pin cushion! The next morning I went in for my LH level to be tested, to be sure I had surged.  The test came back showing indeed I had!  Oh my...  When I went to get my blood drawn I thought I was past any squeamishness about that, but I was wrong.  This happened to be the first time I was not able to watch it happen.  You're probably thinking, 'Wait, what... You watch it?'  And my response is, "Yes.  Yes I do."

I don't think it's the needles I'm afraid of, I believe it's the substance within the syringe.  I cringe at the thought of getting a flu shot, or other necessary vaccinations.  On the other hand, I don't mind getting tattoos or giving blood.  I have always watched the act itself, until now.  As I mentioned, for the first time EVER, I couldn't watch.  I hope this will pass, because it's about to get crazy all over again.  In less than a week I'll be injecting myself, preparing my body for the IVF cycle I WILL be going through.

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Every blog I write you'll notice I have a picture, a quote or a video within.  I wait until I've completed my writing before I begin my search.  As you've probably noticed I like to keep some humor within, for I enjoy it and truly believe I have to.  Without the humor, there's no laughing, and you can't handle something like this without laughing.  There are times though when taking a more serious approach is more appropriate, and today is one of those days.  I found a song that I wasn't expecting to find.  Prepare yourself.  If you're going through this yourself or you know me and you're walking along with me during this journey ,you may want to grab a Kleenex.