Hysterosalpingogram, Wait!! What the ...???

Hello, again!

I'm glad you're back, and ready to go on this amazing ride with me.  Sit back, relax and just remember... be patient.  That's my #1 rule, and it's taken me a long time to realize, but it's true and soon you'll understand why.  I have not been as upbeat as you're probably thinking I'm being, but i'm realizing I have to be.  This isn't easy and the only way to get to the finish line is to be as positive as I can be, and believe.  Believe I can do this, and I want you to believe too. 

The journey I've been on up to today has not been easy, as I'm sure you know.  It's not just the disappointment I've felt each time I would start my period, or watch my friends and neighbors get a positive sign on a stick telling them, 'Yep.  You did it, you made a baby!'  Not the comments I mentioned last time where everyone you know and love trying to tell you not to worry.  Trust me, those are all reason's it's been difficult, but my biggest struggle has been ME.  If you're experiencing this too, you know I'm right.  You are your own worst enemy, and it's up to ME to change that.

I learned a lot the first year, a lot of what NOT to do, lol.  First of all, do not forget about the person trying to help you get there.  Oh man, let me tell you what, they know what's going on.  They get it, all we want is to be a mom, but make sure you remember them.  'Sexy Time' became 'no time'.  Don't get me wrong, we tried... we tried a lot.  After months of my emotions riding the Crazy Train, sneaking ovulation tests, yes sneaking.  Ok, wait I have to tell this one.  About 7 or 8 months after the wedding, I said I was going to try an ovulation kit, but my husband said no.  He didn't want a stick telling him when he should and shouldn't be trying for 'Baby Makin Time', and I didn't know if we were shooting for the right time or not.  Well, I decided if I didn't tell him I was doing it, he wouldn't know the difference.  Ha!!  After waking up early everyday for a week just waiting for that smiley face to show up... it finally did.  I couldn't keep myself together and blew my cover, lol.  Yea, didn't go over to well and yep, missed that special moment.  Now back to my point, after months I realized I needed to remember who I was affecting.  It wasn't just me, but my best friend too.  So with the first year almost over, I thought maybe I need to take the advice I was given, and stop TRYING.  

You know it's funny, if you really think about it.  If you stop trying, you will not get pregnant.  Really! Think about it.  Ok, now if you stop "trying" as in peeing on a stick or counting your days, maybe it'll just happen.  So there we were, a year later and nada.  

Let's take a quick dip back in time 14 years...  I was married before, yes I know I should have mentioned that, but it was long ago.  One of the permanent outcomes from that time in my life is a 3 inch scar on the bottom of my abdomen, from the result of surgery after having an ectopic pregnancy "Tubal Pregnancy" on my 19th birthday.  I know what you're thinking, Happy Birthday to me, right?  Well, I knew one day that may bite me in the butt and sure enough, it did.  I ended up getting a test called Hysterosalpingogram.  Wait, huh?  A whata funamuna???? Just kidding, it's one of those unknown medical terms, more commonly known as an HSG test.  It's an X-ray test that looks at the inside of the uterus and fallopian tubes and the area around them.  Happens to be one of the most uncomfortable tests I've ever experienced.  Doesn't help when they have to send in a Doc to move your organs around to get it to work.  Yes you read that right, MOVE my ORGANS!!!  (Funky case of the 'tilted' uterus) I don't know how they did it, but I can tell you I never want to experience that ever again, but wait, I do...  Uh, anyway it confirmed that my right tube was blocked, so now we know we're back to one year, let me explain.  If we've been trying for two years and now we find out that only one tube is open for that little egg to make it's way to the pool; really it's only been a year.  Doctors will tell you that you will ovulate from one ovary each month, so it's like were shooting blanks every other month.

It had been two years, well actually "one" and my lovely hubby wanted to keep trying on our own.  Of course it had only been half the time in his eyes, so he was back to being excited for "Baby Makin Time" ALL the time!!! ...